Trying to make bad habits pay off.

My insomnia is back.  It was bad before our vacation.  Sharing a smaller bed for 3 nights going out there and back was hard on my sleep schedule. I did better at the rent house.  Then post vacation let down started triggering other parts of my depression.  To be honest my vacation calmed my IBS-D.  I could eat salad and spicy foods and didn’t pay for it within an hour of eating.  It was great.  Then one day my youngest son got bored and set a few fires.  The anxiety of the afternoon triggered tummy trouble, big time.  my acidic stomach has been working overtime.  This is the main cause of my IBS-D.  Constant diarrhea after eating.  They tested me for another problem once.  It’s something about stomach dumping, where the stomach doesn’t slowly digest food, it fills up then dumps the contents into the intestines all at once.  Honestly, I think something like that happens with an acid overload.  So I invested in 3 rounds of Nexium.  The first day it worked wonders.  I didn’t poop for like 24 hours.   Then I didn’t take it the next day because my schedule was messed up.  I was back in the bathroom again.   

Bed time snacks are the worst.  Eddie has to have a bedtime snack and I had been using them to absorb the acid churning all evening.  Well, after I eat my body won’t sleep until it knows the diarrhea is over for the night.  Some nights I’m up all night which has triggered my insomnia.  Now, I’m in full fledged night person mode.  Last night I stayed up writing fan fiction.  Tonight, I found a night job on Indeed.  I’m thinking I could pull that off for the next 10 years or more.     

I got a small reprieve tonight.  We went to bed at about midnight.  I stayed asleep until 1:30 a.m.  I had not had a bed time snack so my tummy was a little upset.  I got up to eat crackers and milk and well I’m waiting for the shit storm. 

As I said I’m working on making some changes.  I monetized this because I plan on using it more often.  I’m writing freelance for Google and a few other places.  Anything to get me out of my own head.  Some posts will be essays about things in my daily life.  Other’s will be something I’m investigating.  Tonight I wanted to outline where I am in my mental and physical health. 

My flashbacks are back after about a month break.  A commercial triggered them.  It sucks.  

So mentally, depression, flashbacks and insomnia. 

Physically, my weight is up.  The IBS-D is back with a vengeance.  I need to do more stretches because my left heal hates me when I stand up.  My new insoles help with that but after a long drive the balls of my feet hurt more.  I think the salesman at New Balance said it was foot fatigue.  I think I’ll let Advanced Orthopedics of OK look at my feet to see. Some of this is probably because of my new knee.   If I could get way from the house to walk without fear I would soil my pants is would be better.  I have to eat to keep my blood sugar in check.  I have been having some pretty sever headaches too.  Some of it has to do with where my head is when I sleep.  I have a new pair of glasses.  I have been playing small screen games too much.  I haven’t been controlling my blood sugar. 

So that’s the wrap up on me.  I think I will go play in a make-believe world for a while.   The story I wrote last night got 72 hits in less than 24 hours.