Sunday, July 31, 2016

I let myself get upset tonight

I asked for a favor from my husband and I guess he mistook it for a joke.  Instead of the massage I asked for, he took his sleeping pill and went to sleep.  Now I'm disappointed and kinda pissed and I can't go to sleep. 


I listened to music to meditate.  I listened to a couple of books to relax.  I knitted.  I just can't go to sleep because I'm upset.   I figure if I get it off my chest, I might be able to relax and sleep.  I'm half tempted to turn on a light and do something else like read a book or go back to knitting.  All I really want to do is sleep. 


Oh, when I laid down with my meditation music, I went to my happy place.  It's a cabin, not necessarily in the woods, maybe it backs up to a greenbelt somewhere.  So I started planning it's construction which could keep me awake.  My bedroom looks over an infinity edge pool with a stacked rock wall.  The pergola at one end of the pool deck is visible from the living room.   The field stone fireplace is the focal point of the great room with 2 recliners, a long couch and a day bed around storage ottomans.


Stepping up to the front door you can look around the left side of the house to see a covered porch that wraps all the way around to the pool deck. Entering the front door the kitchen is off to the right.  It's 2 walls of cabinets and appliances with a low island surrounded by stools.  Dark wood cabinets topped with stainless steel tops, oiled iron knobs and handles.  To the right of the door is landing pad, a bin for the mail, hooks for keys and coats, baskets for gloves, hats and scarves just wide enough to have a cubby for each of us. The wall beyond is windows, turns a corer to the left and leads off to my suite.  Under those widows are bookshelves with window seat cushions across the top.


The far wall is the fireplace.  Centered on the fireplace is a grouping of furniture.  Past the furniture on the right is a farmers table with assorted chairs, stools and benches around it.  The table is centered on a built in hutch between a door to the garage and a powder room.  In the corner between the powder room and fireplace is an entrance to my work room.  A wall of bookshelves and a center work table are visible through the door way. I keep the French doors open unless I'm blasting 80's pop.  To the left of the fireplace is the first flight of stairs which wrap around the back of the fireplace.   Passing the staircase a turn to the left then the right leads back to my suite. Another set of French doors stands open against the rails of the staircase on the right and windows on the left.  A log bed is visible through the doors.  At the foot of the bed is 2 chests with cushion tops. Past the bed is a chaise lounge and a floor lamp tucked in the corner opposite the entry.  They don't block the view of the pool since that whole wall is French doors again. The room is a southern exposure so heat reducing curtains are available but the wrap around porch keeps most of the direct sun out of the room.   The suite includes a panic room/closet and a full bath.  Upstairs from it is another master suite matching the floor plan below but is my husband's studio.  Above the kitchen and living room is a bedroom full of bookshelves filled with rocks on display.  Above my workroom and the garage is another bedroom with 2 bathrooms and closets making up the full north east corner.  A planned elevator shaft off my work room is being used for a 2nd washer.  A place to wash my quilting materials then press them dry. There's a hallway to the master bath and back mudroom there too. 


oh a wave of the dizzies just hit me.  Exhaustion is setting in.  I'll go dream of furniture after a bite to eat just in case the dizzies are low blood sugar. 

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