lots of changes around here

First, I've been writing fiction to stem some of my needs so I have been avoiding this blog because it is reality.  lol, I always seem to have more than one fantasy going at once, so it's been nice to feed those needs.

Second, I had been working like crazy, full time on the phone from home and I had finally mastered everything when I took some time off to have surgery.

That's the third,  I have a new knee.  The right knee that gave me so much trouble most of my life has 2 metal plates and a plastic disk between them now.  Oh the muscles hate me lately and there's still a clicking when I walk but eventually, say a few more months and I will no longer have trouble with that knee.  So tomorrow, I have one more in home pt appointment then I have to go out and see someone outside the house.   I have had a crazy day which has contributed to the late night. 

This morning, I was up with hubby and our oldest to get me to the doctor.  Ugh, part of the regimine is taking an aspirin in the morning to keep me from getting blood clots which can cause all kinds of problems right now.  So I was sick to my stomach until about 10 then the aspirin floated away from my tummy.  At that time though, I needed pain pills and all we had to drink was Eddie's coffee.  No thank you.

So I came home and drank some Ensure with my pain medication then took a glorious nap until about 3 p.m.  I did laundry and planned things for the boys until my husband came home from work.  I had 2 great sandwiches for dinner then conked out again for about an hour.  So my sleep pattern is messed up.    I'm over medicated on pain pills right now and my sleeping pills are having no effect.

First I tried fighting it but Eddie's restless leg syndrome was making me sea sick.  Once again I had taken aspirin before bed. So I sat up and did some crocheting until I was out of yarn.  I have a spare baby blanket for the first time in ages.  Finished Project Euphoria has taken over.  I would like to start another but it's 2 in the morning and if I turn on more lights I think Eddie would kill me.  so I will write. 

I have 3 paths in front of me now.

1. I can wait until I am allowed to go back to work and fight to get my job back.  
2. I can go to the doctor's office tomorrow and get the release to go back to work and get my job back 
3. I can let this job go and go back to college full time

I'm leaning toward 3 but, I don't know if I can keep myself on track.   Three also comes with a few possibilities that I would like to take advantage of.  No matter what, I have to get myself back on a track of some kind.  I don't want to sleep my life away.  

Additionally, I have got to get back to going to church.  I've been feeding the good wolf the wrong way and I need to get back to better food for that wolf and my soul.  

Okay, I'm going to go check my college email and get things moving for tomorrow.